Post Christmas Musings

First, a photo of a gift. The luminous glow somewhat reflects some of my holiday feelings of family turning up and making themselves at home and my son’s neighbor friend coming over and enjoying the day with us. The political talk was less conflicting then usual but I am feeling sad about the planned backpack up Indian Creek that I am not coordinated enough to do. Backpacking never came easy for me. I only hope the troublesome foot and ankle  issue can be resolved so that I can at least day hike. By the way, if I ever sound like I’m whining let me know. Two other positive anticipations for tomorrow……my middle son is coming plus the bonus of the grand-daughter. Tomorrow evening is Skyping with the grandson and his mom and dad while they open their box of goodies from my wife and I.

With four very close family members passing on in the last 5 years I found that the one I miss the most today is my brother-in-law who seems to have left an emptiness  larger than my sister or either parent. In thinking about it, some people’s’ personality takes up more space than others. I think that this is partly the space in your mind and partly the flow of energy that is interrupted when they pass. The void is partly filled with your memories of them and the emotional exchange with them then becomes one-way. It is as if those emotions still reach out but are reflected back. And the emotions you  traded with those people were never meant to come back. It is difficult to perceive these people in your life as being gone so perhaps their energy lingers as long as a reciprocal emotion keeps the exchange flowing.

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